I cannot believe that I am writing about this again. It seems like every couple years I have to “start over “ on my fitness journey. How do I go from competing in a NPC Bikini completion to gaining darn near 40 pounds?
I’ll tell you.
Lack of discipline.
Well, I’m finished. Done.
When your “big” clothes start to fit, you know its gone too far. I really can’t keep doing this to my body. I always seem to reach a goal and then stop working on it, just to end up back where I started. I’m so tired of taking before pictures. I’m tired of going on trips and never sharing pictures because of how I look. I’m tired of googling “How to loose 20 lbs in 5 days”. I’m tired of starting over.
This time is the last time. I only want to get healthier from here on. I don’t want to take short cuts. The right way. I say this because if there has been a short cut out there, I’ve tried it. Pills, shots, procedures…I’ve done it all. Hoping to find some magical option so that when I wake up I’ll be skinny. Hmph. No such thing. What I have done that works…. good ol diet and exercise. There’s no way around it.
I’m posting my last before picture. Raw. Unfiltered. The WHOLE truth. I have found that taking pictures is helpful. The scale doesn’t always show the whole picture. Muscle weighs more than fat, so if you’ve gained muscle and lost fat the scale will read the same. I will document this journey, here and on my IG. I know I’m not alone in this struggle, so I hope that my journey will encourage someone to start or continue their own.
So here I go again.
Determined.
Focused.
Ready.
Leggo!
I’ve decided to pose just as sexy in my before photos as I will after! So I’m poking my extra rotund booty out & throwing a hand on the hip & giving a big smile. I’m going to be healthy soon, but I’m already beautiful now!